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How I Learned to Love My Own Testimony

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I used to think my testimony could be summed up in five words: I grew up in church. 鈥淚t鈥檚 time to share our testimonies!鈥 was my least favorite sentence at church events.

It wasn鈥檛 that I hated hearing testimonies. Far from it, actually. I loved drinking in the stories others told about their lives. How they had a traumatic experience. How they fell into the depths of despair. How they heard the audible voice of God and had a complete Saul, awakening moment. How they gave their lives over to Christ. How they now travel all around the world, like superheroes, finding people to help and being the Ananias for others.

It was just that, in comparison, I was so boring.

Who would want to hear my testimony? 鈥淲ell, I grew up in the church. My family is all Christian. I鈥檝e just kept learning more.鈥 There鈥檚 nothing compelling that would make people weep over the goodness of God. Sometimes I鈥檇 try to jazz it up a little. But how much can you really embellish on a memory from when you were four?

Then I鈥檇 try to pinpoint when I 鈥渕ade the faith my own,鈥 as we like to say. But I鈥檇 get stuck. Was it when I went to a new school for an advanced program? Was it when I was part of mission trips in high school? Maybe it actually started when I moved to college. But I could never tell for sure; it always came gradually. I鈥檇 learn about 骋辞诲鈥檚 comforting presence. I鈥檇 discover community. I saw 骋辞诲鈥檚 heart for social justice. I learned that evangelism was possible for even introverts. Each learning experience was a step, not The Step.

So I would keep quiet. I鈥檇 give a little shrug and say, 鈥淚 grew up in the church,鈥 and leave it at that. I would let others share their stories first and hope time ran out.

Who knows how long I would鈥檝e gone on doing that if God hadn鈥檛 stepped in?

Conversion Moments

God chose to speak to me, as he does for so many, at . I 诲颈诲苍鈥檛 hear a voice from the sky or receive prophetic visions as main speakers led sessions. I just went to lunch with two people I had never met before. Inevitably, one of them asked me for my story.

鈥淥h, my family is Christian. I grew up in the church.鈥

鈥淗ow neat!鈥 the guy exclaimed.

How neat? What?

鈥淭hat鈥檚 so cool. So it鈥檚 like exactly what the Bible says. 鈥楻aise your kids in the way they should go.鈥欌

Train up your child in the way he should go, and when he is old, he will not turn from it. A verse from Proverbs. I鈥檇 read it many times but had never connected it to my life before. It was a stunning realization. My experience was valid. More to the point, my experience was biblical! I 诲颈诲苍鈥檛 need to have a 鈥渞oad to Damascus鈥 moment, and someone could still be interested in it?

I felt, for the first time, affirmation for my story.

About three weeks later, I was listening to a speaker at my church talk about the revitalization of the church, its importance in people鈥檚 lives, and the need for it to continue. He told his story.

鈥淚 grew up in the church. Isn鈥檛 that great? I want everyone鈥檚 story to be that they grew up in the church.鈥

My head might have exploded.

Why had that thought never occurred to me? Isn鈥檛 that our goal? Don鈥檛 we desire to see everyone start their lives with Jesus as their Lord and live that out every day? Don鈥檛 people who have gone through the pit of despair sometimes wish they hadn鈥檛 in order to meet God? As beautiful and as moving as their stories are, don鈥檛 we rejoice in the end because they have accepted 骋辞诲鈥檚 grace?

It opened up an entire new world for me. My story was the Church鈥檚 story. My story was my parents鈥 story, my grandparents鈥 story, the handing down of 骋辞诲鈥檚 precious Word for years. It was the story of 骋辞诲鈥檚 faithfulness to all generations, the story of the disciples in Jerusalem, the story of missionaries in every corner of the globe.

Each person鈥檚 testimony is always 骋辞诲鈥檚 testimony. I finally found where God entered mine, and it was 2,000 years ago.

I still say 鈥淚 grew up in the Church鈥 when I share in a group. But I no longer duck my head, embarrassed, or try to deflect the conversation. I鈥檒l happily share the difficulties I鈥檝e had, hoping they connect with someone and being okay if they don鈥檛. I rejoice in my story, because through it the glory of God is revealed.

What鈥檚 your story? Share it with us in the comments below!


Sharon is an 果冻视频 alumna from the University of Illinois鈥擴rbana-Champaign. She now wears her orange and blue in Madison, Wisconsin, as the communications assistant for 果冻视频鈥檚 .


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